In the height of labor I thought I could go no further.
He showed me I’m stronger than I ever realized.
In the early painful days I vowed to give up nursing- hourly.
He showed me moment-by-moment I can make it to the other side.
I thought I couldn’t live without 8 hours of sleep.
He showed me 3 hour fragments will do.
I thought I would get angry if I heard unending cries.
He showed me I am more patient than I thought.
I thought I needed a paycheck to matter.
He showed me my presence is enough.
There were some people I thought I could never forgive
He showed me how to love without conditions, because of him I have learned to let go.
I thought after eight years of marriage I knew my husband as well as I could.
He showed me I don’t- that love is a bottomless well.
I thought I wouldn’t understand his needs.
He is teaching me every day what it is to be a mother.
Waterfalls. Mountains. Bananas. Rain drops splattering against a window. He’s shown me that all these things are worthy of awe in equal measure. I am humbled and blessed to learn the world again through his eyes. Some years blur in my mind’s eye but 2010 will always stand out because it is the year that brought me Waleed. Here’s to 2011. Oh the things we will learn, both he and I.