For three years I looked forward to last weekend. I remember lazy summer evenings at Cafe Istanbul picturing my graduation lunch and the house packed full of people and my family watching me graduate. These were the thoughts that kept me going, and kept me from quitting when at times I desperately wanted to. Law school was optional. A career change that surprised many close to me, and in some ways, myself. Because it was optional, an additional degree, it was doubly difficult to fight off the nagging doubts about my choice, and doubly difficult at times to not burst into tears when others chided me on my choice. Thats why this JD is more than a degree to me, its me letting myself know that I can do it despite me not believing in me at times. It tells me that it has been done, and that there is more to be done, and that inshallah more is indeed possible.
Thursday as the first guest arrived I felt a sense of sadness because I knew just like that the weekend I anticipated for three years, would fly by- and it did. Though its nice to sleep in a bed and not my living room floor, the house seems strangely quiet, as though it too feels slightly lonely.
And to my friends, please know your kind words, messages, comments and gifts have warmed my heart and made me feel blessed beyond measure. Friendship is a precious privilege. Family, good or bad, are the relationships we must endure. But friendships- friendships are a delicious choice, and true friendships are the creme brulee in the feast of life. There was a time I felt I’d never find such qualities again in friends- its for that reason that I feel truly blessed and I thank you for being you. I hope I can be the same sort of friend to you.
Ahem, for all those rolling their eyes and/or giggling at my sappy-iosity. Please forgive me but come on, I’m entitled to a tad bit of sappiness in light of all the whining I have put you all through, no? Oh yeah, thanks for putting up with that too! 🙂