At last a new template! You like? I never thought I’d have a personalized template because I am the most technologically inept person I know but luckily I know some really awesome people. A big thank you to Huda who herself considered this template for her site and quite generously let me use it. Another huge shout out to Mia who created the graphic and helped me further format the template. I hope one day I can help you guys in some way too.
I personally find black text on white easier to read so hopefully the new template will be easier on the eyes. I also created two new blogs linked on the top bar. One is my movie reviews, and the other my book reviews. They probably will get updated a bit more frequently once exams are over though.
When I showed Kashif the template he was a bit perplexed at the title: Perpetually Befuddled. “But honey…” he said “You’re not perpetually befuddled.” To explain my perspective I thought it good to provide a definition:
Growing up I believed with all the certainty in the world that my parents and teachers had all the answers and when I grew up I too would have the answers. Two years ago an inmate escaped from jail and decided to hide behind my school. We were on lockdown and as I was closing the blinds in the back of my classroom I saw the police running, guns drawn, into the backwoods. I felt beyond terrified but I walked back to the rug where my students sat and followed in the tradition of grownups before me, by reading a story like nothing was wrong. Growing up is ironic because you must pretend you know it all when in fact you have more questions than ever before.
In middle school I thought once I reached highschool I’d have the answers to life’s secrets, then as a senior I knew once college started the answers would spring forth but the older I get the more I realize there are no easy answers to anything. Life is full of perpetually befuddling questions with forks in the road everywhere you turn, but finding the answers is part of life’s beauty. I am not ashamed to be perpetually befuddled for it is through questioning and confusion that knowledge and answers spring forth. I hope I perpetually consider and wonder about both the darkness and beauty of our world and the darkness depth and beauty of my own soul. This is my little corner to express thoughts, find answers, or ponder the imponderables and for that reason I find the title aptly suitable.